sejak akhir2 ni,byk mende yang menimbulkn tanda tnya yg sblum ni,pnah tlintas di kepale hotak aku ni..why she's acting so wierd lately....then, 1 day she told me dats one man,no no..not man..actually boy..damned!!he juz 19 god damned!but da mmulakan perang saraf utk men'jatuh'kan or in menglishnye men'tackle' (otak kau...) die...die tu maksdnye she la..bkn budak 19 tu...
bila aku dgr cite ni,aku tdiam jap....bkn kejap,lame gak ah an.sbb ape aku tdyam???sbb tgh menahan amarah yg, sumpah!!Allah Ta'ala je yg tau tahap mane,sbb aku rase gunung merapi yng da nk meletop kt indon pon xpanas cam ati aku ni..
dialognye lbih kurg gni ah..
aku : how come he got ur phon number??
she : err...i gave it to him...
aku : untok..........?
she : mase event aritu..sbb i bdk baru dlm committee..so byk kali r kene rujuk die..
aku :(dlm ati)laaaaaak....(nada wak por)event 'Islamik' gtu pon kene dok msj ke sdgkan dlm 24hrs,ko ngn aku brape minit je time event tu...wa senyp je an..an...pastu aku tnye, 'pastu?'
she : pastu die da start tnye2 n msj mende2 yng len dr program..
aku : contoh???(even soklan cam laha an..)
she : cam..wtpe tu..da mkn ke...n so on la..(so on tu aku tmbah r..mane aku ingt sume mende...)
aku : ooo...
then aku da start marah2...seroiusly, pada aku org gile je xmarah....sbb things is, aku da byk byk byk kali ingtkn die bout diz thing yg berkaitan la...tlg jage sket..u r not in uitm...sane rpt sket je da ade rase len..jatuh ati la,apela..waklu!n all those things happen exactly mcm yg aku pernah bgtau die..so,ape aku wat?aku mnx paswd fb die..aku stalker??eh tlg sket..die ade paswd fb aku ok..dr dulu g..aku smpai lupe pswd die dek lame xbukak..sbb mnyakitkan ati ape yg aku jmpe..tah mamat mane tah dok mesej nk usha..bkn mamat je,tp bermamat-mamat..aku bkak fb die xsmpai 3 mnit,3-4 laki dok chat ngn die..'hye...watpe tu..','katne tu...'bole kenal?'siap nta msj,'awak nak tau x,name awk secantik wajah awk'apak kau!!!!!
so, aku strt tnye die ni sape ni sape..die kate byk die xknal..juz add je..adoiyaii...bile aku tnye asal??die bole plak unkit psl aku kt sni..rmi kwn pmpuan..aku bole asl die xbole...
c'mon la!!ko kt uia..aku kt uitm...xsame...k fine..mmg keliling aku pmpuan kat sni.tp xpnah ade sorg pon minah yg ttbe nk usha aku ko tau!ko tu baru on fb 3 mnit,blumbe2 jantan dok chat ngn ko!same ke??bule tlg jwb x??
tdyam...sbb evidences mmg byk da aku nmpak..tp wa snyap je an..an..
then,die ungkit bmcm2 lg mende yg aku rase xde kaitan..aku kuar mlm la ngn bbdk pmpuan smpai 2 3 pagi..oi,ni klasmate aku la sume tu..kelas aku 23 org..laki 4 org..nik n bobo dok kolej,xleh kuar..zul xkuar mlm..so aku kuar la ngn sape je yg tggl..ko???keliling pmpuan..yg sebok nak cari jantan tu asal???c'mon la..sume mende yg ko bandingkan dgn keadaan aku kt cni sume xkene la...jgn wat alasan g bole???
kemuncaknye,aku suro die buktikan ape bezanya aku ngn laki len keliling die..access org len kat die bpak luas tbentang..its like u r exposing urself to the other man u know..yes, u r not,like take off ur cloth n ask men 'come n touch me'.but u do it another way around..take of ur cloth,not asking them to get near to u,but u didnt stop them if they get close!!understood???so who the hell am i to u rather than all those guys??bezanye,i ade no phone u,diorg xde..tu pon u da bg kt sape,aku xtau...
aku nak suro die buang sume frenz laki yg die xknal,die cam berat hati...then,aku suro die wat status kat fb from in a relationship tp married..nak tau ape jwpn ide????
'I'M NOT READY YET!!!'
r u nuts??im not asking u to married wit me right fucking now!!but juz to make clear borderline to other crocs there!!!
i asked her wat its mean by not ready..she said 'nnti klu da ltak married,org laki xnak kwn ngn i'
hei!!kalo laki tu ikhlas nak bkwn smata-mata kerana Allah Ta'ala,ko da beranak lapan pon org xpenah kire tau x!!!
jadi,aku anggap jwpan sbnrnye adala
'U r juz my standing plan in case i couldnt find any other guy for my life'
