Mengapa berpaling

Pada hemat aku, insan 22 tahun yang lahir dalam keluarga melayu sederhana, sememangnya faham akan sebab mengapa kebanyakan orang-orang lama, terutamanya dalam kalangan keluarga aku amat setia memilih dan menyokong UMNO dan Barisan Nasional.

Faktanya mudah.
Kerajaan BN pimpinan UMNO yang membantu Mak Tam mendapatkan sedikit tanah dan harta sebagai warga peneroka FELDA.------Aku hidup, membesar dan bersekolah di Felda Palong 1, Gemas. dari kecil sampai umur aku mencecah 10 tahun, lalu aku berpindah balik kampung, Lubok China, Parlimen Rembau.

Kerajaan BN pimpinan UMNO yang membantu arwah Opah dan Atuk aku memiliki sedikit tanah pertanian, rumah pusaka beserta kemudahan jalan raya bertar manggantikan jalan tanah merah yang berlecak lumpur pabila hujan.------Aku hidup, berterusan membesar dan bersekolah di Kg. Semin, Rembau. dari darjah 4 samapi darjah 6. kemudian aku pindah ke SMKA SHAMS, seremban sampai tingkatan 5

Kerajaan BN pimpinan UMNO yang membantu aku belajar di sekolah menengah sampai tingkatan 5.

Selepas tingkatan 5, sekali lagi, Kerajaan BN pimpinan UMNO yang membantu aku menyambung pelajaran lantas melengkapkan pengajian ijazah aku di UiTM. Kerajaan BN pimpinan UMNO yang berterusan menegakkan hak UiTM sebagai tempat Melayu dan Bumiputera sahaja.

Sebelum ini kita di tampuk kepapaan, Kerajaan BN pimpinan UMNO yang mengangkat martabat petani, pekebun miskin, peniaga kecil, penoreh getah sambilan dan tetap, agar mampu memiliki rumah kos rendah, kereta buatan tempatan, bantuan infrastruktu jalan raya, kesihatan dan keselamatan.

aku faham.

dari 10% kemajuan, Kerajaan BN pimpinan UMNO yang memajukan negara kepada 50-65% kemajuan. dalam beberapa puluhan tahun, Kerajaan BN pimpinan UMNO yang meninggikan ekonomi kerajaan. jadi orang-orang lama melihat dengan jelas, terang lagi bersuluh akan kemajuan yang dibawa.

tapi mengapa orang muda berpendidikan seperti aku, ada yang menentang Kerajaan BN pimpinan UMNO yang membantu mereka bersekolah rendah dengan lebih teratur, bersekolah menengah dengan lebih lengkap, melengkapkan pengajian di universiti awam lebih-lebih lagi UITM. yurannya murah kemudahan lengkap.

tapi mengapa orang muda berpendidikan seperti aku, ada yang menentang Kerajaan BN pimpinan UMNO yang membantu ayah aku untuk pernah memiliki sebuah kereta Honda Civic? ada kereta, bermotorsikal juga.

kerana aku percaya, Malaysia sepatutnya berada lebih tinggi dari tahap semasa. aku percaya negara ini seharusnya sekarang berada di tahap 85%-90% kemajuan. kenapa?sebab Kerajaan BN pimpinan UMNO sudah memerintah negara ini melebihi setengah abad. aku percaya tol tidak boleh lagi di kenakan selepas 30 tahun mengutip duit rakyat. aku percaya kutipan cukai kita terlalu banyak bila nak dibandingkan dengan kemajuan, kemudahan yang aku nikmati.

bukan aku tidak bersyukur, malahan kerana aku bersyukur aku merasakan kemajuan berasakan perubahan total itu satu kewajiban. jika kita dah menelaah 1 buku 40 kali, jika kita masih tidak menguasai perkara tercatit, sesuatu yang tidak kena sedang berlaku. sama juga dengan negara ini. ada sesuatu yang tidak kena dengannya.

aku percaya, jika hanya ada 1% untuk Malaysia berubah ke arah lebih baik tanpa UMNO dan BN, aku akan bermatian mengundi selain UMNO dan BN.

Bola Malaya, Masalah dan Penyelesaian

Pertama, Harimau Malaya perlu ubah corak permainan. main short pass sudah. macam Barca. buat penat badan lari2 jejauh pasti bola ke longkang ni.

Kedua, CD tak bole leka, melopong. Abam Aidil kena kurangkan melopong. Abam Azmi pulak kena kasi laju skit. pihak lawan masuk gelecek bole, pandang je. tak challenge langsung. jangan melopong, mark key player, jangan bagi chance lawan try. kalau try, 50-50 bolos. kalau tak try, solid ZERO bolos.

Ketiga, RB & LB perlu buka ruang dan support attacking. Abam Mahali terbaik setakat ni. kalau 2-2 side laju naik turun, jamin Malaysia pergi peringkat akhir Piala Asia.

Tiga,DMF like Abam Safiq dan 2,3 MF bertahan sangat bagus dalam memenuhkan ruang diluar kotak penalti. tapi ruang hanya diisi, tapi banyak ruang dan lubang untuk lawan masuk dalam petak penalti. ada 5 MF, tapi sayap lawan masih masuk petak penalti. cuba jadi macam Essien dengan Gerrard, pegi challenge bola tu.

Empat, tatkala bola dah dirampas, MF perlu lekas menguasai bahagian tengah untuk menutup ruang. tak perlu di kejar melepasi padang kita, cukup mengekor, pressure sampai lawan terpaksa pass bola balik ke belakang.

Lima, bila kita sedang diserang, jangan kejar dari belakang lawan, sebaliknya turun ke bawah mengikut garisan menegak menghala ke bawah. kerana lawan yang pull ball wide, dia berlari lebih jauh dari berlari mengikut garisan menegak. jangan lawan ke kanan, kita ke kanan. sebaliknya, terus ke depan lawan untuk menutup ruang, cukup peluang, tujal bola dari kaki lawan.

Enam, CF bila kita defending, jangan dok main kemuncup kat atas. sebaliknya turun ke bawah salam kelajuan sederhana. supaya dalam 15 saat, SB sedang hold bola, anda mampu sekurang2nya menambah kapasiti pemain kita dibahagian tengah. ni Abam Shahrul sedikit lewat menyokong bahagian tangah.

Tujuh, bila kita berjaya merampas bola, jangan cemas kelam kabut menghantar bola nun jauh ke atas. CF tak sempat lari, MF pon tak sempat nak cover. so relax, hold bola 2 3 saat, cari rakan terdekat, dan paling selamat, pass. dah pass, jangan tercongok kat situ, tapi pull wide untuk buka ruang di bahagian tepi.

lapan, bila menyerang, MF perlu laju buka ruang dan support penyerang dan sayap kiri kanan. abam Badrol otai attacking, tapi chemistry hanya ada dengan Abam Muhymeen je. dengan Abam Shahrul, tak jadi sangat. kan kita ada Adik Nazmi, main kat Portugal lagi. banyak perkara bole belajar dalam beberapa bulan banding 2 tahun disini.

MF kena laju, pandai dribble, badan kental. macam Kunalan, laju, kental, tapi abam Kunalan tak pandai dribble sangat. kalau dribble power skit, mau dibeli dek Gamba Osaka. lari macam Usain Bolt. takkan nak harap Wan Zack je. sekali injured, kan ternganga.

tindakan:

Abam Kunalan kena training dribble sikit.
Abam Safiq, Abam Amar, dan MF yang kebanyakkannya defensive mentaliti, sila berlatih lari laju macam kilat, absorb sikit mentaliti menyerang.
Adik Nazmi, sila menuntut dengan penuh tekun di Portugal, sok Ong Kim Swee dah jadi coach, mohon ajar Abam2 and Adik2 baru dalam team Harimau Malaya. mana nak dapat ilmu bola sepak gitu kat sini.
Abam Shahrul, mohon jangan injured. kasi training dribble laju sikit lagi. lari laju, tapi dengan bola, goyah sikit.
Abam Safee, sila banyakkan berlari jugak. berat sangat nampaknya.
Abam Mahali, sila kekalkan prestasi anda. in fact, sila pengaruhi bunyamin untuk lebih agresif menyerang. anyway, you man of the tournament!
oh, tak lupa jugak goalkeeper. focus, communication penting dengan defend. kalau defend tak dengar, hentak kepala diorang dekat tiang gol. dalam team ada kapten, tapi defend, anda nakhodanya. pasal kalay Abam Safee kapten, yang tahan bola keeper jugak.
to FAM dan pihak2 beragenda peribadi, sila letak jawatan. biar jurulatih buat kerja dia. jangan dok suroh amik player ada nama, prestasi tiada. develop talent, bina kem, bagi geran banyak sikit. ni 1-2 juta, kongsi 20 pasukan. apebendenya. Malaysia kaya, presidan Tuanku Sultan lagi. petik jari, bilion duit datang.
kepada rakyat Malaysia, sila kukohkan semangat dan perpaduan. jangan malu pegi stadium. kalau tiket mahal, kita balun si kapitalis dalam sukan itu. teruskan menyokong Harimau Malaya. kalau bukan kita, takkan orang Korea pulak nak sokong.

sekian warkah dari penganalisa bola sepak amatur dari kg semin. segala pengetahuan yang cetek ini, hanya datang hasil menonton EPL dan La Liga. bayar bulan2 beratus, so sila belajar dari mereka. tiada alasan" itu obersee..kita meleysia, main style kita"

serius aku takde hal nak main style kita, tapi sila berkesan. kalau dah 15tahun main longpass still macam ini, sila akui kelemahan, baru bole maju ke hadapan. if we dont admit a problem exists, we wont solves it!

Selamanya Harimau Malaya.

Pabila Tanah Ditadbir SI Bebal

Aku tak tau dalam setahun pihak berkuasa tempatan peruntukkan berapa juta ringgit untuk perbetulkan jalan raya kay kampung aku ni. Baru semalam jalan kat kampung aku ni di'baru'kan. dari hujung simpang tiga depan kedai Wan Seriah sampai lah ke persimpangan Kota. Bukan aku tak bersyukur, atau tak berterima kasih kepada pentadbir negeri. Aku cukup berterima kasih atas usaha yang cuba yang ditunjukkan. Tapi tak sampai 2 hari, ada je paip air yang pecah kat tepi jalan ni. 2 3 paip pecah tiap bulan. Pecah pulak betul2 tepi jalan. Bila da pecah, syarikat air negeri terpaksa la korek tanah, dengan jalan tar sekali disauknya. 

Bila dah betulkan, tak pernah tahu atau faham tanggungjawab untk meng'tar'  balik jalan yang dah dikorek tu. Jadi jalan tu dibiarkan lah berlubang atau paling tidak pun, ditampal dengan simen. Jalan tar, berlubang, tampal dengan simen. Nampak tak kat situ, SIMEN! Jelas terpancar tahap kebebalan yang agung setinggi Gunung Datuk. Bila hujan, habislah semua pasir dari simen yang dah pecah tadi, bertaburan di persimpangan jalan. Kalau motor lalu tu, mampus la nak kena bawak slow tahap kura-kura sebab takut tergelincir. Jadi aku ingat, sama ada perancang desa dan wilayah daerah rembau ni, sama ada dia level SPM, dapat post perancang dandar dan wilayah rembau ni guna ‘cabel’ atau pun dia memang beli sijil. Dari dok tampal jalan sini sikit, sana sikit, lebih baik buat je jalan baru dari awal sampai akhir. Buat lah jalan tu berkualiti sikit. Susah sikit nak pecah, kurang belanja untuk perkara yang sama berulang kali setahun. Takkan benda tu pun nak tunggu common people bising.

A Kind of Life that I Want to Live

A country life. I wish one day I would have a land that big enough for me to build my mansion and growing few corps, a cowshed, and two horses. One for me, another one for my lovely wife. Obviously this kind of life only available at Kampung or village. But I don't think our land at the back yard enough for the number of cows and goats that I wish to have. Sometimes I think maybe I could live at Australia or UK. Suburbs area, of coarse. buy a piece of land, build up my house and sheds for cows, goats and horses. I loves this kind of life. Peaceful. Way far from civilization, smokes, and engines hum from vehicles at town. But not too far from people. I don't want to be labelled as a swanky.

I want to have a small garden at the side of my house for herbs and fresh vegetables like Jamie Oliver had. Every time I wanna cook, I just have to grabs anything that I want. So refreshing especially in the morning to breath a fresh, cold, chilly air. watching the sunrise with a cup of hot coffee. A cup at my right hand, and papers at another hand. sit down in front of my house and casually skipping few pages from front due to inability to processing scrap news and issues. Maybe I should start reading from behind, like everyone with higher mentality usually does.

BERPAKAIAN TETAPI TELANJANG

Buat para ibu, isteri, kakak, adik-adik perempuan serta para suami dan ayah yang sayangkan isteri dan anak-anak perempuanya, Rasulullah s.a.w telah memberi amaran berkenaan satu sikap golongan hawa yang menjadi penghalang mereka daripada mencium bau syurga. Bau syurga pun tidak dapat dihidu, apatah lagi melangkah kaki memasukinya. Nauzubillah! Moga Allah melindungi kita semua.

Hadis daripada Abu Hurairah r.a. bahawa Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda yang bermaksud: “Ada dua golongan yang akan menjadi penghuni neraka. Aku belum pernah melihat mereka iaitu golongan yang mempunyai cemeti-cemeti bagaikan ekor lembu yang digunakan untuk memukul orang dan golongan kedua adalah para wanita yang berpakaian tetapi telanjang, berlenggang-lenggok ketika berjalan, menarik perhatian orang yang melihat mereka. Kepala mereka bagaikan bonggol unta yang senget. Mereka tidak akan masuk syurga dan tidak dapat mencium bau wanginya. Sesungguhnya bau wangi syurga boleh terhidu dari jarak perjalanan yang sangat jauh.” (Riwayat Muslim no. 3971) Dalam riwayat Imam Malik, ada sambungan hadis ini iaitu: “…Bau wangi syurga dapat dihidu dari jarak 500 tahun perjalanan.” (Al-Muwatta’, no. 1421)

zaman mutakhir, zaman lelaki didayuskan.

Zaman mutakhir ni payah sekali kita nak jumpa malahan memiliki isteri solehah yakni bererti taat sepenuhnya kepada suami tesayang. Sebab utama ialah mereka (para isteri) sendiri tak faham apa sebenarnya erti taat. Pada pendapat peribadi aku, taat bermaksud menerima, memahami, mengikuti suruhan dan kata orang yang perlu ditaati tersebut selagi tidak menyalahi syara’ tanpa sebarang persoalan di mulut, perbalahan di dalam hati mahupun protes anggota badan. Protes anggota badan tu maksudnya si isteri ni tunjuk la tindak tanduk yang menggambarkan ketidakpuashatiannya seperti muncung, masam muka, kalau sebelum ni semua suami buat for example pakaikan seatbelt tapi disebabkan dia nak protes,dia masuk kereta terus pakai seatbelt sendiri. Perkara macam ni Nampak remeh tapi kalau mendatangkan perasaan kecil hati dalam hati suami, kita sendiri tau apa hukumnya.

Masalah ni wujud mudah saja.sebab yang berhak untuk ditaati tidak ditaati.paham tak maksud ayat ni?maksudnya dia (si isteri) tak taat kepada Allah dan Rasul-Nya.bila dia tak taat kepada Penciptanya dan kekasih-Nya, macamana dia nak taat kepada ibu bapa dia?dah dengan parents tak reti nak taat, adalah mustahil untuk seseorang wanita itu untuk mentaati suaminya juga.hukum yang simple kan.tapi ini sekadar pandangan peribadi.betul tidak, itu subjektif.bergantung kepada individu. Ini Cuma dari pemerhatian dan kesimpulan dari ‘educated assumption’ sendiri.

Kepada jejaka di luar sana, pilihlah isteri dengan teliti. Taat itu satu criteria kemaslahatan keluarga di masa akan dating. Kalau Nampak sebelum kahwin lagi dah dok asyik memberontak je, al-maklumlah tu ye.pada masa yang sama, didik lah diri kita untuk taat kepada Allah dan Rasul-Nya juga.ingat!lelaki yang baik hanya untuk perempuan yang baik dan begitu juga sebaliknya.

Selamat beramal~~

p/s berbulan dok diam tetibe beceramah.lulz

dunia ini indah..jangan kau rosakkan..

she's too hot for a football player.wasn't?

This is Alex Morgan, pemain bola sepak wanita untuk skuad piala dunia US.i think she's too hot for a football player.i'm searching for her during the game between USA n France last night.she scored~~

lBersih 2.0..Antara Matlamat dan Cara..

adeh..gilak kelamaan xupdate cerita ni.nak buat mcmane,xde intenet kek ghumah.ni pon mnumpang kaseh kek rumah makcik.seb bek anak beliau ade tenet,aku pon tumpang la sekaki.I don't want to talk bout exam,intersesi,or watever so so.today's topic CLEAN 2.0 or Bersih 2.0.

I'm quite sure yang semua orang tahu tentang rally ni.well, i wont denied that im a BN's man,but ill talk this issue in rational manners.not in view's as an UMNO's but as a people who also have my own right to lives in a peaceful country. aku tak nafikan beberapa tuntutan bersih tu sangat berasas like usage of dakwat untuk mengundi tu kan.aku pon sokong jugak tentang tu dan pelik kenapa SPR tak pakai even dah beli dah dakwat tu.tapi ape yang aku tak setuju ialah cara nak menyampaikan hasrat tu bukan cara yang betul.untuk ape sebenarnya nak march kat tengah2 bandar tu dari sepenjuru alam ke satu penjuru alam yang lain?buat sesak KL je.tengok ape dah jadi sekarang.polis buat roadblock sana-sini.menyusahkan orang lain.disebabkan Bersih,orang yang tak nak pergi bersih pon terkena tempias juga.kemonla.kita dah besar2 dah semuanya.tak payah nak marching sane-sini menyusahkan orang lain nak g KL,orang berniaga takut,pelancong pon takut.

nak pilihanraya bersih?pergi la SPR.discuss elok2.Agong nasihat pon tak guna jugak kalau still keras kepala.kalau bangsa lain tak dengar,aku pahamla.sbb raja diorang mahatma gandhi ngn chin peng.tapi orang melayu?takkan anwar ibrahim kot.benda rational.berbincang.buat keputusan dan tindakan yang mendatangkan hasil.pergi marching dpt betulkan SPR?pakai t-shirt dapat bersihkan pilihanraya?budak sekolah pon tau jawapannya.

nasihat aku,tak payah pergi march.bahaya sebab macam2 boleh berlaku.boleh timbul rusuhan,gaduh,silap2 kedai2 kat kl abis kene pecah.maklumlah.dah ramai2 kt situ,yang berketayap pon bole terbang ketayapnye bile nmpak kedai 7eleven terbuka takde orang jaga sebab dah cabut selamatkan diri dek rusuhan.aku faham kita semua nak pilihanraya bersih.aku pon nak jugak.tapi ini bukan medium yang sepatutnya.nak jumpe Agong untuk hantar memorendum?mohonla menagdap Tuanku.pergi march jerit sane sini tak mendatangkan hasil.SPR dah offer ruangan untuk berbincang,maka,berbincanglah sebab itu yang mustahak dan lebih berakal.batalkan marching ni untuk elak perkara tak diingini,bukan sebab Pak Jib tak bagi,bukan sebab nanti anwar emo bukan sebab politik.cukup dengan sebab ada cara yang lebih rasional.n one more thing, this is MALAYSIA, not sumwhere in EGYPT.

p/s: harap2 suara kerdil ni difikirkan dgn rasional..not in political mug.

Yang Ini Penting!Mamat Mat Salleh yang benci Lynas dan sayang Malaysia

realy2 important..watch it..find more info..he's damn right bout this piece of shit.Got it from Blog Serius.

OK!Yang Ini Sangat Lol!!

Yang Ni Memang Sad Giler

shit man.ini kesah memang buat aku nak menangis.stay strong atta boy!!dpt dari Blog Serius

Yang Ni Memang cool habis!

3D Street Arts by Edgar Mueller

sgt2 cool seyh.aku xtau klu aku tiru die punye bulat2 pon belom kompom jadi.ok, fine.xkan jadi..i'm not an artistic man.

aKu nAk bAgitaU yAng : Isu ni xde beza antara gender!

Isu yg takde beza antara gender,baik lelaki baik juga perempuan.jeng!jeng!jeng!

CURANG!

kalau betul2 jadi depan mata ni,memang hardcore gile.nak kene tendang masuk tasik ke.

haha.i've been in this kind of situation.not once,but twice.n the latter sgt lah babi care aku kene tipu.btw aku bkn nak reveal akta berkanun bout love story aku.tp aku juz nak share pendapat aku ttg curang ni.sume ni ats sbb utk support member aku yg baru kene dumb dek ex-bf die yg dumb for a girl yg maha gedik katenyelah.ah,pedulik hape aku.nak kate aku bias?mmg!!ko mampu?mestila bias jgk!

citer die gini.kwn aku ni baru je clash ngn ex-dumd bf die ni dlm 2 weeks ago.so die cam cool lah kan.lek je.xde jodohlah kot.tp baru ni member die g shopping2,tserempak ngn bekas die ni jnjalan ngn pmpuan len.so die amek la gmbar n sent kat kwn aku td.ape lg mengamok la kwn tu sbb baru je 2 mggu break ko dah pasng baru.haha.siap pki baju peberet die lak tu.n baju tu mamat cokia tu beli ngn kwn aku ni mase couple dulu.gile nak kene troll

so kwn aku ni ngadula kt aku.aku mcm biase la dok bg nasehat ala2 dato Fadzilah Kamsah gitew.mane ade org clash ttbe dpt baru kejap je.sah2 la mase couple ngn ko lg die da pasang lg 1,2,3 dan 4.klu x,xkanlah baru clash je ngn aku dlu tu,minah tu terus je declare engage ngn org len.musti ada permulaannya om!musti!ngak ada cacat celanya lg berkenaan hal ini!so,sis,ko sbar jela ek.u deserved sum1 lot better than that pussy.

ni ade satu kes kt London, tmpat dimananya Frank Lampard yang Hebat tinggal.mamat ni nipu awek die,so die nak dptkan blk awek die,die watla cenggini.damned lol.klu aku jadi ppuan tu,sah2 aku xhingin balik kat die.PENGORBANAN konon! F U C K !.

A Brighton, UK man tried to redeem himself after cheating on his girlfriend by walking around with a sign that says "I cheated on my girlfriend. I am humiliating myself to show I am sorry." Actually, he could have achieved the same effect by just wearing the hat and jacket and skipping the sign. In any case, publicly humiliating yourself to achieve Internet sensation status rarely indicates sincerity. He'll definitely be cheating on her again if this goes viral.

ni plak research bai.research.bukannye pegi library negeri n pick satu buku bacaan kanak-kanak n buat rumusan.aku tak tau la betul or tak.tapi ex-gf aku dulu tu mmg lawa, and she cheated on me!so?????

selalunya orang kantoi curang sebab die tak rasa dia akan kantoi curang.so,moral of the story,sila jangan kantoi bile nak curang or ko kena tembak dek awek/pakwe ko atau pon kene ngn pakwe awek yg ko pakat curang tu or ngn awek pakwe yg ko pakat curang tu *ape ni?.

pesanan aku untuk sape2 yang penah curang,sila curang lagi demi kebaikan bersama.otak kau!jangan la repeat!bongok!penat aku tulis berjela2,xkan moral of the story pon korang xleh nak kuis dari kepala otak korang yg sarat dengan ilmu tu.*ttbeuntuk org yg dpt awek or balak yg baru je curang ngn ex memasing sbb korg,beware!sbb si dia bole curang lg.skali buat mesti pandai buat lg.skill improves day by day,ok!

p/s: nak beli present utk gf aku utk day 100 punye celebration tp tgh pokai.

cuti-cuit lubok china~

hahaa..smpai2 je kg,rase sgt stress..sbb da tbiase dkat dgn my sweetheart,then suddently jauh..ngengade x...?x kan..?hihihi..btw,skati aku la nak rase rase ape pon..perasaan aku ok..hahaha


skali ujan xnak benti plak kan..xnak ujan dr pagi,bwk ke pg esoknye..sah2 la bnjir tmpat aku ni..esoknye,tensen lg sbb xdpt g pekan..nk tukar tayar moto,da haus,,dahla baru dpt lampu ijau dr ayah aku tukar tayar moto pki name die..skali xdpt lalu da dke banjir ni..adeh...

last2,g la pg td..xnak lame lak an org tu timbang rim blakang..smpai ptg ko t aku nuggu kt kedai tu..blk2,kene g ngemas rmh pegangan kat pncang..ok la dpt upah sploh hengget dr ko ngnange kt rumah xwat ape an...

ptg btolak naik s.alam...erghhh..scary sial..1st time dlm 2 taun naik s.alam gune wave cabok ni..xnak mngeletar lutut aku bile lori kontena 20meter lalu sblh aku 120km/h..sial la...mmg patotla pnunggang moto mati lg ramai dr org len..buduss....

then,kepale otak aku dgn isu kat mesir tu..aku xbrape paham sgt ngn mende yg blaku kat sane..tp ape yg aku paham,rejim ni la yg bunuh Imam Syahid Hassan Al-Banna dulu tu..ala..korg xkan xknal kot..tu,ma'thurat yg korg dok bace time kat asrama petg2 dlu tu..die la yg susun mende tu..bai,kreditla sket...hormat keje org..(ttbe..)

Marriage

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.
She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.
On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.
Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

credit to Kimmies Floral

ntahla....

1.penat sbb 2 hari pki baju kemeje...letih kot nak ngosok baju kat lantai...

2.kelas policy cam biase...totally lost in da jungle....xpaham ape sbb sume mende kene bace seniri..ingat ni UIA kape....

3.congrates utk kwn2 yg da present OB..kesian kat Nadhi sbb die blur time present..xpe2...ganbatte~

4.kelas arab kitorg di'papar'kan dgn video2 arab last sem..aku xheran pon bout markah video tu..tp serius...aku dlm video tu GEMOK~

5.ok klas asia tenggara berlaku perkare pelik..ntahla..aku nak komen byk2,bgaduh plak kang..last2,geleng kepale jela..kesian kami yg xbrape rmi ni...huuuu

6.mggu ni xtau apesal perut aku xberape selese...mkn xbrape selere....nk kurus lg kot..~

7.g meeting kelab budaye..kecian dgn bbdk junior yg tngange dpt keje utk MAWAR 2..nseb bek den org blakang yo...maleh den...~

saye rase hidup......

hmm..im back from dead~
thank 4 my frenz who always support me..especially kak aishah nun jauh d london..mmg penyokong tegar pnye lah..syg kamo!
thanks jgk kt membe2 yg salu try 2 cheer me up..but special thanx 2 a person who t8 care of me since 1 fall sick few months ago..iv decided 2 giv evrythng on her,try 2 win her heart since she's already sacrifice much of her time n attention to me..arigato gozaimas!

I ALWAYS CAN START FROM ZERO,N ALHAMDULILLAH..ITS PROGRESSING RAPIDLY...

saranghe~

akhirnya........smpai jgk ke melaka....

1st day kelas da kene bahan...sume kate aku sorg je yg kurus blk cuti....kurus sgt ke???huhuhu...rahsia kurus dr inchik halem,sila 'makan hati dgn mndalam' n workout!kompom kurus cam aku..org wwat 3bulan,aku wat sbulan je..tp sakit ma..maw kene tgkap masuk wad psikatri tau....tp syukur,survive jgk dlm proses 'pngerasan hati' tu..

kelas CSC,lecturer cam strict,tp cam sempoi...ntah!aku xpnah kesah..im always serius in my duty..xkesahla pnsyarah strict or x.mase depan seniri beb!smpai ptg...

mlm da xleh tido.cam biase la an..nk mkn pil tido,takot telajak smpai kul 6ptg plak kang...lembik bdn kot mkn pil2 tu sume...mau ilang akal dibuatnye....so,sabar,buat care manual...lelap mate!

2nd day,kelas policy ade wat trip!yes!bajalan lg!hoho..saye suke bejalan....kelas OB,inchik Fuad nmpak strict jgk..tp lawak jgk..so,stakat ni,sume lecturer best la!!
blk2, trus g tesco...ayun nak jmpe,tensen katenye..projek final year kene reject..huhu...susahnye blaja ni siap ngn pojek2,prototaip..seb bek ak xamek sains2 tu sume...pastu mkn ngn bbdk ni kt tesco..

haha!Ida sebok nak kurus!ok,den bwk ko g joging sok,ko xlarat,den seret ko!

telupe!!!

1st n fomos,nak ucap congrates kat 2 org adik spupu aku yg bjaye meneruskan legasi kecemerlangn akedamik dlm fmily sejak bermulanye zama revolutionary dlm fmily pd tahun 2005..haha!ada makna tu....fikri dapat 8A..bagos!as expected 4m MRSM student.ceng plak dapat 5A3B.pon aku kire ok jgk ats sebb keadaan environmnt kekmpongn di sekolah beliau..bdk kg,apelah sgt..tp tahniahla sbb kptusan diluar jangkaan..even xde pelung g SBP pon,c'monla..skola mane2 pon kalo xblaja pon same aje...huhu

2.pegi besday kt rmh dian.smbut besday kimi n akak die yg mane 1 tah..byk benar,xkenal aku mane 1...dtg makan jela...well,keadaan kechatan xbrape mngizinkan after dgr berita mngejutkan ttg seseorg..sbb aku xkesah ape yg jd,tp care ia berlaku tu,sgt mmbuatkan aku makin xpecaye cinta hawa..selain ape yg blaku ntara my dad wit my biologcal mom,diz is da worst thing ever happen 2 me related to girlz or woman..I JUZ LOVE DA WAY SHE LIED TO ME N EVERYONE ELSE...tp,org yg tau pkare sbnr akn terus tahu yg die telah byk menipu....

dlm idop aku,cume ade 3 org je ppuan yg earned my complete recpect ats sikap n care mereka melayan org sekeliling..my late grandmother,my late foster mother,n my 1st love..all diz 3 people nver show me any disrespected manners on me..sumenye baik,n i can say they know wat is LOVE,LOYALTY n WHAT IS HUMAN BEING....

my late grndmother n my late foster mother da only 2 person that I know who love me til their death...dats y they earn my full respect..while,she(my 1st love) never said anything bad about me even im not treat her in da way dat i shud do..so diz 3 people da only kaum hawa yg aku hormat n xkan ade sekelumit benci pon....(see,even my real mom pon still yearning my respect u know...)

3.pegi Jeram Toi beramai yg dianggotai oleh sahabt2 skola rendah.keakraban kami mmg xdpt disalahertikan lg melainkan spt adik beradik...11 taun da kenal n tiap2 taun raye same2....ala...g pon,mmg sepupu2 jgk sumenye tu..xkire la jaoh ke dekat,ttp 1 fmly...

seronok2 mandi mande,blk2 je baru perasan moto kimi kene culik...alahai..moto baru kot...penatla cari sekeliling jeram mane tau ade tjmpe pnculiknye,bole dterajangi beramai2...malangnye nasib,xjmpe jgk..nak wat cane..xde rezeki mak tam aku ckp...

xpela kimi...sok beli moto baru..hahaha....